"You Don't Look Like What You've Been Through."

Why 2019 Wasn’t the Worst Year of My Life An open, raw look into my life in 2019. 2019 was one of the hardest years I’ve ever through, and the absolute hardest year that we’ve been through as a couple. But God. January 2019 In January 2019, we found out we were finally expecting after 7 months, which I later realized was not a long time at all to be trying to conceive.  February 2019 Just a few weeks later, 1 day before Valentine’s Day, we started miscarrying. I had never experienced a loss of any kind before, so it … Continue reading "You Don't Look Like What You've Been Through."

When you feel like you’ve lost it all – Story of Job

Disclaimer – I am most obviously not a preacher, and I am not a teacher. What I am is a Christian lady who has gone through some stuff. I am writing this with hopes of helping someone who has felt like they’ve lost it all, realize that God is still on your side. In the past, I’ve felt like my life was literally over. As dramatic as it may sound, it didn’t seem dramatic to me. Anyone who has gone through the loss of a child, especially multiple times, will tell you that the feeling is like no other. After … Continue reading When you feel like you’ve lost it all – Story of Job

My babies have gone to be with the Lord

This post may make some people uncomfortable, and that’s okay. I do this in efforts to keep the memories of our beautiful babies alive. At just 21 year old, the loss of 3 babies has been nothing short of heartbreaking. I’ve often beat myself down about being so young and “in my prime,” yet being unable to successfully bring a baby into this world. It’s not a great feeling at all. The first time we lost a baby, I let a lot of self-hatred and negativity build up within me. I questioned God often, struggling to understand why He could … Continue reading My babies have gone to be with the Lord